Also, no secularists, government/law ebforcement or family helped or prevented this from happening. Also, the voices in my head have gone from "why does G-d hate me?" to "what sort of G-d would hate His own creation?" to "Just because G-d hates me doesn't mean I have to hate myself" to "Just embrace G-d's hatred of me"

There is evidence of a direct relation between the tetrahydrocannabinol content of marijuana and effects on those passively exposed. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5741419/