It seems one conflict is choosing between the inner world and the one outside of my mind. Choosing the inner world means social withdraw, but studying Hebrew, meditation, yoga, learning violin. But these beautiful women with great behinds that shape their clothing really well are pulling me out of my head and wanting to exist in reality. Getting a job in er psych ward means a lot of involuntary exposure to thirdhand marijuana, given the increase in er admittance caused by cannabis psychosis.